Mood swings

I've got weird mood swings - but then again, since when were mood swings normal? I'm angry at him for saying what he said, but at the same time I feel like crying because I'm angry at him. like, wtf?

I guess I can say that it's a few things that made me unhappy:

1. Max's friends - kept asking who we are in the game, like wtf, I can understand la, friends wanna play with friends. So fuck, could have just answered my questions. Rage quit. gg.

2. What he smsed me about before we retired for the night. I don't get it - I wanna write, what's wrong with that? I know your concerns, but it's not sif I'm writing an FR on myself FOR them. Like, wtf man, I'm writing about MY experience ABOUT them. What's so wrong with that?

*takes to bashing her pillow and wall*

It hurts to feel so angry. IDK why.

Aw X)

He came down to Bugis straight after I told him that I'd seen Joey there. >.<

But then I was already near Marina Square =.=

Had good Wangan times with ABC-kun today XD

Transformers 2 was nice. A bit too long though. Made me sleepy. XD

25th June 2009

He got mad at me, and we nearly argued.

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26th June - went to DSC. Clean bill of health. Went to nearby and had fun. Thanks baby =) Although a shadow crossed my face when he said sorry. I guess, it had been bugging me the entire day.

After that, went to Bugis to eat Bak Chor mee..saw a noob eather, but we were fungry, so we went to eat..then went to look at a nice ice cream palour - home-made ice cream ftw!! XD

Ate a bit of ice-cream, then went to DBG. Saw ABC-didi, Trison-didi, Aiyo and the MHD group. Didn't get to play Wangan but played 20SGD worth of touch-screen XDDD hahahaha..oh and played DDR with ABC. wooo..very tiring.

Went to IKEA and walked around - we were really tired, but I think we ironed out quite a lot of things. XD Ate the fake ice-cream from Glico...damn nice! =D hehehe...worth it right? X) Went home after that..yawns..

Time to settle the menu~~~

Finally..

..bought it.

Lulz.

Thursday - will be trying out the chocolate fondue with him. Need to go buy fruits!

Friday - will be going back to clinic for results with him, and then chilling. Woot~

Saturday - Transformers 2 with TRD!!

Uneventful

Went to Clementi on Sunday to make sure my L4D skills don't rust. Got a few smses but turned them down. Watched Seng and Hanee race. I like it how she drives without any thought of pride and stuff.

Maybe one day I can be like her.

I played a bit myself later. Didn't earn many stars, but overall gained a profit XD

"preached" about the wonders of TA and stuff, but I don't think he'll really do it. I'd be surprised if he did.

Now, just slacking. Wish I worked more.

mmm..

Thursday - He pei me home. We sat at my house downstairs and chatted till late. We talked about a lot regarding our past and stuffs. To be honest, I cried.

"Just cry k? Cry until you happy." And he held me close. All those memories flashing through my mind with stunning clarity...I just remembered everything suddenly. I felt so sad but grateful that he was there for me.

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Friday - Woke up, made breakfast for him. Went our separate ways. I enjoyed myself at the fish spa =) Then went to DBG and earned quite a number of stars =XD

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Saturday - I just came home. Eating the mussels now. He spent quite a long time with me today. Really happy. His mom called to ask where he was, worrying about him spending money. I kind of like, worry about that too =/

And crap. forgot about guitar strings again. wtf =.=

Kallang

So like, went Kallang with the intention to go ice skating, but after we saw that the place was pretty packed, we both were kind of turned off.

I went to check Wangan machines at TKA there - empty, since it was only about 2pm+ at that time. I complained (as usual) that I was hungry, so we went to KFC and ate a little. I didn't want to eat too much coz ice skating, you know. XD

End up, after eating Snackers, we saw that the rink was still too crowded, and he suggested that we could go watch a movie instead. I went to the arcade, and saw a chance to do Project 600HP = 2k stars, so I went in. After which, some guy with an Evo 8/9 named ROCKY came in and proceeded to eat us back.

So what I did was to step brakes on him right at the start so he bumped my R32's ass XDDD Then he was pissed enough to slam me back. Fair enough. I got 2nd, and changed to 'my lovable car' (cookies for those who get the joke). Then we played 1 on 1, Wangan westbound. He chose to go straight all the way, ending at CCW where after a few big turns, the path splits into C1 in and out. At the last km or so, I was kind of worried that it looked like I wouldn't win. But with some lucky aiming and a mistake on his part, I put him into a bus stop.

Since Baby had already went to get the movie tix, I was pretty desperate to play TA and retire immediately but nooooo, the kid ran over to the next set of machines and called his friends over. I was like wow...2v1 - gonna be exciting. Then when all 3 seats were occupied, I was like "wow!! 3v1!! I so scared~"

Baby came back with the popcorn that made me high =X Anyway, we played Nagoya and I got 2nd place. I was really running late for the movie le. When I ended, I told the guy next to me (he seemed the oldest anyway) "Today I let you go coz I have a movie to catch. You guys want to 3v1 me, not so easy. Want rematch come DBG find me."

Like what I told Baby, lucky for them, I wasn't wearing my TRD jacket, else I would have missed the movie (btw, we watched Blood: The Last Vampire. Plot isn't that good. I think it's overhyped) and I would have just stayed there to play.

During the movie, I was so pissed I ate the popcorn really fast and felt sick halfway through the movie. After the movie, I think I'd relaxed a little, and we were in the stairwell walking down to get out of the place (it was quite deserted anyway) when I stopped at the top of a flight of steps and really tried to relax - just in case the stairwell opened to the arcade area (in which I would have told Baby that I want to check out the Wangan machines...again). I think he knew I was really pissed off; he suddenly put his arms around me from the back and hugged me real tight. Thanks Baby for being there for me. ^.^

Then after that we walked out - lucky for us (and prolly the kids) the stairs brought us to the 2nd level, and a different part of the mall. So off we went back to DBG. Walked to Sunshine Plaza and sent Baby to work (he intro-ed me a nice place named Koi Cafe. They make great bubble tea. Imma go back for the Honey Black Tea =D A little on the expensive side though.. Oh and also, Baby remembered that I didn't like and couldn't tahan the smell of the aromatherapy shop near the NTUC at TPY central, so he made sure to take a different route out of the MRT station - so sweet of him). After that I walked to TPY Entertainment Centre and sat there trying to lure some ppl into giving me stars...Oh well. I got 52'1xx today. So damn close to breaking my timing. Last few turns always giving me the same problems..

Lulz at the smses we were sending while I was gaming and he was working.

After that I headed back to DBG and met Matt-kun, Mr. P, Z31, Shie and Rave. Didn't battle, coz I was kind of drained already. Tried some TA and Jubeat, but really cmi..so I went off early (after hearing that Kor was coming...) and went to Carrefour to buy bread. Came home and now...blogging.

Thanks Baby for making my day.

Pranks in L4D

One of my favourite pranks in L4D is: When the host switches cheats on, I bind keys to spawning tanks and witches, and either 1. crash the server by overspawning, or 2. cause a lot of screaming, cussing and swearing to start in the LAN shop.


Incident #1: My teammate told me that the opposing team would switch cheats on when they played as Infected and spawn tanks to kill us all. Fair enough. So I said that I would spoil the game by binding keys to spawning tanks AND witches, and then I would spawn so many that the host would simply crash.

My teammate also said to set "noclip" on as well. That allowed us to fly out to the destination saferoom. And since tanks can't break down saferoom doors..I just closed the door and spawned as fast as my fingers could spam the keyboard. =D We crashed soon after that.


Incident #2: Guy A is sitting beside me playing VS. I notice that the host switches on the cheats when he needs to. Guy A turns around and comments something to his friend B - and I realised that he's the host. So before I joined the game, I bound my keys once more, and when I could finally join the game, I simply waited till B switched cheats on, and suddenly there were 10 witches and tanks in the distance, with 5 witches spawning nearby. I was insta-incapped, but guy A was just so damn stunned.

B quit the game asap, and then came over. A asked why he spawned so many tanks and witches so fast, and B said that he didn't, and must have been coz they realised that cheats were on and immediately spawned so many.

I was hiccuping with laughter. Srsly damn funny. XD

waatt...

4th place...again!

/facepalm

Either way, I'm grateful to HIM, who came down so early (even though he's a pig, and we all know pigs sleep in on Sundays) to sarpork me. Quite happy that everyone came early too.

First match was against Vertex(1). Swee owh, the 3+1 in the 3rd map of No Mercy! I was so scared I would steal the smoker's one T.T

Well, let's put what happened at Funan behind us.

Indian curry massage - wtf XDDDDDDDDD

Thanks baby for coming to pei me, and for agreeing to sit with me for a while on Saturday as well.

I think I've really improved my personal skills. I will play without flashlight. I will play with higher sensitivity.

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I'm not gonna emo at what we're discussing right now. I just want to know. Maybe I'll cry later when I go to sleep thinking about all this - because I've never thought of the future before, I've always lived in the present, for the present.

It's hard to talk about such stuff, baby. But after 4 relationships? It's best that I started learning from my mistakes, and start talking.

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On another note:

M: I was pretty worried, didn't know if I should have not insisted that he played against ILY today =/
L: yea u shulda played...actually, why didnt u play? coz my marshals was telling me since zombie mania that u are the one playing very well consistently in the team

I have to disagree. Very well? I doubt it. =/ Unless you're talking in terms of teamwork, then maybe luh.

I wore him out

True. We've spent 24 hours and 15 minutes together le. Thanks baby >.< Please take care. You always take care of me, and I feel very bad for not taking care of you, which is how it should be.

I'm gonna repeat something from my old blog here:

Things I look for in a guy:

1. He must have the same passions as I do
2. He must not mind that I babble on like a brook about my passions, because I don't know what else I could probably talk to him
3. He must be undeniably charming
4. Cute acts is a must (I don't mean the kawaii kind of cute, more like he does cute things like..well, what EC1 does XD)
5. He must love me for who I am inside. No longer will I be used.
6. Preferably, he should be like a sugar daddy to me. I love to be spoilt XD
7. If number 6 fails, then it doesn't matter. But I would like to treat him (often) well and show him love via gifts and presents (and the occasional hug and kiss)..and I'd like to have him treat me back once in a while and preferably shower me with gifts. Surprises are a must.
8. When I'm crying I don't want him to tell me not to cry. That would make me cry harder. I want his shoulder as my tissue, his arms as a protection.
9. Did I mention he must be cute? This kind of cute is cute looks.
10. I must be able to match his love for me.

I figure #10 is the most important. I could never forgive myself if someone loves me more than I do him...honestly I don't know how that will happen, because it seems I often love my friends more than I love myself.

Love: When someone else's happiness matters more to me than my own.

As quoted.