Emo much?

Silences make the real conversations between friends. Not the saying, but the never needing to say, is what counts.

~

Chaos often breeds life, when order breeds habit

One more time

Just one more chance for him. He's on level ground now.

~

Anyway, I had a fun time with Alert yesterday evening, coz of the 2 noobs who kept giving his R34 stars. I was like, hmmm...okay..you wanna play with my godbro like that when he's being so friendly with you? XDDD

What Bear said....

...was very true.

"Name me 3 things that you and him did, and both of you were very happy" - 0
"Name me 3 things that he has done for you that has made you very happy" - 0
"When in the arcade, does he go and catch toys for you, or at least made it worth your time to go to the arcade with him, even though you can play Wangan as well?" - 0


"Just clean break with him"


When I smsed him last night, he didn't reply. One more time, and I'll really let go. I understand it's the pride, but..*sighs*

Update

★MAY@
Class - S8
Title - Spirit of a True Artisan
Outruns - 2120+
Mileage - 60, 362km
Stories - 1104
Ghosts - 800+


Ahhhh

XD

Replies

@Alert: Lol about the C1 in timing. The thing is: I suddenly seem to keep banging the walls and stuff. I know I have the excuse of Rusco and I breaking up, but...I just IDK la.

anyway, I highly doubt I will talk about it to many ppl. It's just too painful. That night I even called Roy (Wangan, you know, the one that used to have long hair? My godbro la) who didn't pick up, one of my online buddies, and my best friend. When my best friend (a guy) answered, I totally like broke down on the phone with him. =/


@Geo: Laling =) Thanks =) =)

='(

Another chapter in my life is closed. I don't know if it'll be reopened...but I highly doubt it. Maybe he will understand. Maybe what BEST said was true - sometimes a guy needs to experience a harsh lesson to really appreciate his loss.

Told Rusco that we should just be friends. Or at best, break up.

We both cried a lot today. It felt really really painful. But, at least now, I feel relieved. But I really hope he's okay. I really, really hope he's okay. He cried =(

I just hope, that PIGPIG will understand my needs, and not 'move in' on me so fast, but at least give me some time to breathe and catch my breath.

Really quite flattered by what he said. To Timo, and to Mei.

Thanks for those who have always supported me.

Replies and CNY eve and stuffs

@Alert: hey, I really don't mind listening. It was just that, that day I had a lot of things on my mind, so I wasn't really in the 'mood' to listen much. Sorry =( And Wangan that day was really me in my worst, off-form...form =/

@Geo laling~ I missed you =)

@Anna-mei: Glad that you broke your Yoko record...You very evil, laugh at me T.T *emoing liao*

But I think, Timo talked to him about it liao. And we didn't settle it over TRD dinner coz we welcomed the new bloods into the team =D


ANYWAY!

TRD reunion dinner was a blast! I was waiteress cum chef -.-''' And they didn't let me drink much beer =(

Maya: *whines* WAIIIIII I WANT BEEEERRR...WAIIII

BearZ: No. No. No. Read my lips. N-O. NO.

Maya: *emos*

lolx But I think it was damn fun, the entire day. And the best thing? C1 inbound, broke it till 2'53'002 - Just a few milliseconds away from the 2'52'9** timing that Bear set for me. And after that? It was constant 2'53 all the way. Really heartened.

Then today, CNY eve, while waiting for Galaa @ Bugis, I thought I might as well play. Played a bit of battle with the SBH guy, and 2 other guys I think, then TA-ed. Oh man. TA was damn shiok! C1 in...BREAK AGAIN! 52'6** =D 3rd checkpoint till end was still SLOW! I wanna constant '52!

After that, went to battle again with some aqquaintances...had a lot of fun lolx. Galaa turned up and we went off to get stuff done. He and his shopping lolx.

Then went back to Bugis - surprise surprise. TCS-boss was there. Battled a bit with him and *Fish. *mood kind of darken liao* Then kept playing and playing till SBS-Z came. Played a few rounds then I ciaozed home. Didn't know if I should cab or not.

Now, just feeling really happy and sleepy. *stretches* I wanna L4D XD

Bluetooth Headset~

Thanks to Liping, Wanz and Qingz for supporting me in my bid to get a bluetooth headset!! XDD

I just bought mine yesterday.. It was the last one I think. At first I wanted the cheaper one, but they didn't have stock, so actually end up I got the one I WANTED from the very start. LOLX.

This morning got woken up by CK-PIGPIG XDDDD so I used the headset and lie in bed and chatted with him.

No idea what to do now - emotionally and physically. I'll be very honest here - I don't even know if CK-PIGPIG wants to get together with me just because he's been single so long, and I'm prob the only girl around him in wangan? or that he really, really likes me? (i'd be damn flattered by the latter, but only if it was sincere and true lolx)

IDK LA.

Need to rush off for choir liao. Kind of regret yesterday. Lolx. =(

Hair extensions all falling out. Pissed off at their service. Don't think I'll go back to Milly's 2. Maybe will head to Milly's 1 to fix my hair today or something like that. Dunno yet.

Nice.

It was damn nice.

It can be on a regular basis. I seriously don't mind. XDD

Day of Impulse 2

I'm just grateful to Geo laling for listening to me. I felt really "oppressed" with this issue. Couldn't talk to anyone in SG because...we're all so 'morally upright' and uptight and whatever.

Yet, come to think of it. I'm doing it because..I want to find 'love' - this elusive concept that's shared between a guy and a girl. It would be like my other entry - No Longer too Crystal to Love .

But this is never gonna happen. I will not let myself do this. I've said already "I don't think...I will ever love anyone after I break with this one".

Of course, I would still love my girlfriends and stuff la. That is a different kind of love?

It's all going around and around -.-'''

But at least, thanks to Geo I feel..really quite 'excited' now...?




"...and love would never be a remote consideration"