against Alvachan

Oh well. Won him by 1 point, but I finally realised that it was true, quite a waste of time. =.=

So, idk. Don't feel good about winning too either. Now at SMU with JQ eating desserts XD He and his coconut cream.

I just feel worn out suddenly. Maybe play too much Wangan in a day? IDK. And dehydrated as well. Oh well.

Stardrop

Since stardRoP is done with the tuning, I'll prolly put it into use. See if I can play with this setting..else I'll have to spend on doing the dress up..again.



Recently no mood to post, no mood to do anything but to play L4D, or slack at home. Maybe coz I miss him.

I will not talk unless required to in L4D pub games anymore. Waste of time. People just think I'm a small boy or a girl who can't play for nuts. So whatever.

I got mad at him for just a brief moment in time too, while we were waiting at the bus stop.

And then on the way home, I missed my stop and he looked so panicked, I couldn't help but to love him all over again. He was like saying "I wanted to send you home!! Shall we get off and walk back?"

Then I said "it's okay, I send you home k?"

And before that, I was just huddling myself in the corner, and he leaned over and whispered to me "Can I hold your hand?"

like omg..*MELTS*

It's done =)

Finally done with the BBQ I'd been planning for over 2 years. yes, 2 years.

Either way, just a very very big thank you to everyone who came - represented the different parts of my life.

At the end of it, when he sent me home (thanks to my jiemei for advising me to let him send me home), and after he left..IDK..

J: "...you happy can le"

M: "I don't know whether to hate you or to love you for that"

I think it's because I haven't been dependent on anyone to ensure my happiness in a long time - not even with Rusco (TBH, I wasn't sure if I was truly happy with him). It scares me a little that my happiness can make someone happy, in a bizzare way, at least.

Either way, it makes me pretty scared, that..my own happiness is..no longer ensured by myself. I guess, it's a mark of freedom (*thinks back to the conversation she had with Ren on the trip to get dry ice*) that I've enjoyed; like, I'm responsible for my own happiness, but no longer...

*smiles faintly*

well.

Watching Titanic now. They just hit the iceberg.

Chocolate = secksie

Bought a chocolate fondue fountain today (shhh..it's a secret actually) =X

Damn cheap. 35% discount. How could I resist?!

BBQ going more or less smoothly, thank god for best friends and Baby.

Happy! =)

Been a long time..

...since I blogged.

Either way, been busy getting ready stuffs for BBQ.

Tuesday - went with him to see best's place for the BBQ. Sian. Have to prepare wet weather program.

Had a great Wednesday evening and night with the Klique. Hahaha XD All the unglam pics =) Haha about the Giant incidents and stuff - found the mini pit that I wanted. YOSH!

It was really too bad that ALW and JUL argued X( I wish I could have helped more but..sigh.

He was sick on the first day of work. LULZ. I wish I could have gone over to his place and take care of him. He sounded really sick. When he got to work, it was like GG. But yeah, ending around 5pm has its pros and cons =X

He pei-ed me the whole of Saturday. Went to Clementi to do shopping for BBQ stuffs with him and mom. Thanks mom for paying (it was pretty cheap too, considering what we bought =/) and thanks to Baby for pei-ing us and carrying the drinks. So man sia, he carry until like that. hahaha..

I felt pretty sick in the afternoon. Maybe coz haven't been sleeping and eating well. We played a bit of Facebook games then I told him I cmi, have to go sleep a while. Evening we went to DBG and had Pie Kia (lulz, coz the Chicken Rice no space) and then I went off and he sent me off. Rain so heavily sia T.T

Anyway, I feel slightly better now but still kinda hungry. Oh well X=


P.S. Been having my emo attacks as of late. But I'm glad I have so many ppl to help me pull through.

It's over

Finally over.

Won one, lost one, but either way, enjoyed ourselves.

Tired

WCG in about 11 hours.

Nervous, tired, sleepy, stressed.

NTSS. Nice. Lulz.

But Restaurant City damn nice to play =X

So like...

Haven't been blogging much.

Just to recount that I got really pissed at him one day. Thankfully, it's settled.

WCG soon.

Training still bad.

Time to sleep and I'm not sleeping yet. GG