So we were like discussing when the 'officially, we are bf-gf' date is.
Well, it's good to know then. =)
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Do I deserve him?
I haven't asked myself this question in a long time..heck, not seriously ever anyway.
So like, I realised that after 5 months of being with JQ, it's like, he's always being so nice to me and giving in to me all the time. I feel really happy and like, floaty *rolls eyes* coz yeah well, I haven't met any guy who well, has tried NOT to take/has NOT taken advantage of my nature. (LOL JQ POINTED OUT THIS MISTAKE. SORRY DARLING. PATSPATS)
JQ has ALWAYS been there for me, he always takes care of me (while I abuse him by calling him names X( SORRY X( ) and well, overall I think he's a steal. He doesn't seem to want much of me - just wants me to improve myself, slim down, eat healthily etc. He wants the best for me.
So..on the way home just now, a thought just struck me: Do I deserve him?
*recalls her list of 10 things that must be fulfilled* Can I love him more than he loves me? I really don't know.
I feel that I express love through actions and money (unfortunately, yes) - they go hand-in-hand anyway. But never words. I can't bring myself to say those 3 words to him, maybe because..it's too early to declare anything, and..*dies a little* I just..
T.T
So like, I realised that after 5 months of being with JQ, it's like, he's always being so nice to me and giving in to me all the time. I feel really happy and like, floaty *rolls eyes* coz yeah well, I haven't met any guy who well, has tried NOT to take/has NOT taken advantage of my nature. (LOL JQ POINTED OUT THIS MISTAKE. SORRY DARLING. PATSPATS)
JQ has ALWAYS been there for me, he always takes care of me (while I abuse him by calling him names X( SORRY X( ) and well, overall I think he's a steal. He doesn't seem to want much of me - just wants me to improve myself, slim down, eat healthily etc. He wants the best for me.
So..on the way home just now, a thought just struck me: Do I deserve him?
*recalls her list of 10 things that must be fulfilled* Can I love him more than he loves me? I really don't know.
I feel that I express love through actions and money (unfortunately, yes) - they go hand-in-hand anyway. But never words. I can't bring myself to say those 3 words to him, maybe because..it's too early to declare anything, and..*dies a little* I just..
T.T
Monday, September 14, 2009
Sunday!
So what happened today was like, pretty good.
Morning went church. After church go to Clementi - missed my usual stop coz I suddenly fell asleep thinking that the jam would take a long time to clear. So..bo bian, walk all the way from the interchange to CityVibe.
Had LJS for brunch. It was kinda heavy =/ So I won't say what I ate. Except that, I feel that now they are promoting clam chowder (now 5oz at 1SGD) for the school break..the clam chowder isn't good. Totally no clams at all (ate it a 2nd time after the >O*F< and WSM match)
After eating, went up to play LAN. Had 1 very good game. It was just like, warm-up. Quite awesome XD
Saw that it was about 2pm liao, so I went out to the arcade to meet up with the ppl playing the match. I quite like it how Ahmen just pays out of his own pocket for the OF ppl playing the match. I think that's..quite nice la. IDK how to describe.
Watched them play. Kinda disappointing, but IDK. Maybe it was for the better?
After that, I got an extremely late birthday present XD And then went back to LJS to talk to Zals and Anna-chan. Had a 2nd cup of clam chowder - turned out that the more I drank/ate, the more sour it got =/
Went up back to the arcade with them (my god, the lanshop was packed full..) and spent about an hour watching them train, and did some TA for myself. Disappointed that I kinda lost feeling for my car, but I broke into a high '52 for the Supra. Some turns just not for me today =.="
After that, finally got a seat at the lanshop. Had a few games..I think it was awesome that I played with the Jap players (for the 2nd last match) coz they were really good sport, and while they couldn't speak English properly, I could bond well with them. Like most of our 3+1s worked (I landed on the smoker's one coz my mouse kept going haywire), and when I was boomer, they would patiently wait for me and not rush me. And if they saw I had problems, they would straightaway go in for me XD Really nice! And they would tell me stuff like "Brrruja, attack..witch" - one attack with the witch was all we needed to win the Terminal map XD And it just started for them only =.=" It was actually my mistake la. I spawned early to destroy doors, then I was trying to find a suitable spot to scratch the witch from, then I tio block by the witch as I was going past, and they shot at me, then the witch run after them. Woot XD
At the construction site (DA3), we'd kill one (the one who couldn't join them fast enough when they dropped down to hide underneath the pipe for the crescendo event. Then 3 left, and boomer went. I remember that there was one left standing, and he had like one hunter's scratch worth of health left. My teammates missed a pounce..so I just spawn and run and scratch while he was reviving one guy. Yey win.
And they don't kpkb me about my binded keys XD
After that, last match of the day, I was just playing with some ppl in the lanshop to cool down. I think I did some pretty okay Smoker work (DT3, when the survivors are crossing the train top to get to the long road to the house before the ambulance before the church). Kept them there for a long time. But as Survivors, kinda sucked. Teammates all split up, and the witch didn't help.
Then I was acting gay with the survivors at the end, and one of them tried to jio me. LOLX. Lucky I know where they sitting, then when they left, I saw the 3 of them..the egg guy quite cute. Had a bit of an angmoh look. XD And I heard him saying "Haha I was the last one alive" and he was staring at me. Too bad I never give the "hehe..I know who you are" look.
For the last match, I think I had some blind (literally) luck being tank at the finale..although my dimwit partner put all my hard work to waste I stood very very far from the house (near the fireplace area, and the smaller shack) and threw rocks through the trees. Woot. 4/6 hits. Then...my partner (it was 2v4) got control of the tank (they started chasing me..they had 3 molos too =.=) and then just rushed in =.="
Ahh. Good day. I think this rush will keep till Thursday. XD
Morning went church. After church go to Clementi - missed my usual stop coz I suddenly fell asleep thinking that the jam would take a long time to clear. So..bo bian, walk all the way from the interchange to CityVibe.
Had LJS for brunch. It was kinda heavy =/ So I won't say what I ate. Except that, I feel that now they are promoting clam chowder (now 5oz at 1SGD) for the school break..the clam chowder isn't good. Totally no clams at all (ate it a 2nd time after the >O*F< and WSM match)
After eating, went up to play LAN. Had 1 very good game. It was just like, warm-up. Quite awesome XD
Saw that it was about 2pm liao, so I went out to the arcade to meet up with the ppl playing the match. I quite like it how Ahmen just pays out of his own pocket for the OF ppl playing the match. I think that's..quite nice la. IDK how to describe.
Watched them play. Kinda disappointing, but IDK. Maybe it was for the better?
After that, I got an extremely late birthday present XD And then went back to LJS to talk to Zals and Anna-chan. Had a 2nd cup of clam chowder - turned out that the more I drank/ate, the more sour it got =/
Went up back to the arcade with them (my god, the lanshop was packed full..) and spent about an hour watching them train, and did some TA for myself. Disappointed that I kinda lost feeling for my car, but I broke into a high '52 for the Supra. Some turns just not for me today =.="
After that, finally got a seat at the lanshop. Had a few games..I think it was awesome that I played with the Jap players (for the 2nd last match) coz they were really good sport, and while they couldn't speak English properly, I could bond well with them. Like most of our 3+1s worked (I landed on the smoker's one coz my mouse kept going haywire), and when I was boomer, they would patiently wait for me and not rush me. And if they saw I had problems, they would straightaway go in for me XD Really nice! And they would tell me stuff like "Brrruja, attack..witch" - one attack with the witch was all we needed to win the Terminal map XD And it just started for them only =.=" It was actually my mistake la. I spawned early to destroy doors, then I was trying to find a suitable spot to scratch the witch from, then I tio block by the witch as I was going past, and they shot at me, then the witch run after them. Woot XD
At the construction site (DA3), we'd kill one (the one who couldn't join them fast enough when they dropped down to hide underneath the pipe for the crescendo event. Then 3 left, and boomer went. I remember that there was one left standing, and he had like one hunter's scratch worth of health left. My teammates missed a pounce..so I just spawn and run and scratch while he was reviving one guy. Yey win.
And they don't kpkb me about my binded keys XD
After that, last match of the day, I was just playing with some ppl in the lanshop to cool down. I think I did some pretty okay Smoker work (DT3, when the survivors are crossing the train top to get to the long road to the house before the ambulance before the church). Kept them there for a long time. But as Survivors, kinda sucked. Teammates all split up, and the witch didn't help.
Then I was acting gay with the survivors at the end, and one of them tried to jio me. LOLX. Lucky I know where they sitting, then when they left, I saw the 3 of them..the egg guy quite cute. Had a bit of an angmoh look. XD And I heard him saying "Haha I was the last one alive" and he was staring at me. Too bad I never give the "hehe..I know who you are" look.
For the last match, I think I had some blind (literally) luck being tank at the finale..although my dimwit partner put all my hard work to waste I stood very very far from the house (near the fireplace area, and the smaller shack) and threw rocks through the trees. Woot. 4/6 hits. Then...my partner (it was 2v4) got control of the tank (they started chasing me..they had 3 molos too =.=) and then just rushed in =.="
Ahh. Good day. I think this rush will keep till Thursday. XD
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Oh wow.
I haven't updated in a long time.
Right.
About a couple of weeks ago, I nearly passed out on the bus - idk if it was the heat or whatever, but nearly passed out. Lucky JQ was around (kinda..wished he asked better questions though =/ ) to keep me from passing out. The feeling is NOT nice. You feel heavy, and there's this white noise in your ears that block out all noise (and turns voices into some dreamy kind of thing); your legs go jelly and, next thing you know, you can't open your eyes.
Maybe I was fighting so hard to not lose consciousness, and JQ was there to talk me out of it. But he said that I was in a cold sweat after everything (we got off the bus and cancelled all plans)
After that, started to eat properly, and then well, I miss L4D. Once a week of L4D just doesn't cut it coz..skill level drops all that. I feel that I'm not as fast in covering as last time anymore.
School's going fine. Wangan's going fine too. I think I've splurged on Wangan for the past few weeks. No more! Limit to every Saturday >.<
Gaming club too.
Today going out with Karen to get Sticky! Yey! After that, going to school, then to DBG, then to Paradiz. Lol. Ahhhh..
Right.
About a couple of weeks ago, I nearly passed out on the bus - idk if it was the heat or whatever, but nearly passed out. Lucky JQ was around (kinda..wished he asked better questions though =/ ) to keep me from passing out. The feeling is NOT nice. You feel heavy, and there's this white noise in your ears that block out all noise (and turns voices into some dreamy kind of thing); your legs go jelly and, next thing you know, you can't open your eyes.
Maybe I was fighting so hard to not lose consciousness, and JQ was there to talk me out of it. But he said that I was in a cold sweat after everything (we got off the bus and cancelled all plans)
After that, started to eat properly, and then well, I miss L4D. Once a week of L4D just doesn't cut it coz..skill level drops all that. I feel that I'm not as fast in covering as last time anymore.
School's going fine. Wangan's going fine too. I think I've splurged on Wangan for the past few weeks. No more! Limit to every Saturday >.<
Gaming club too.
Today going out with Karen to get Sticky! Yey! After that, going to school, then to DBG, then to Paradiz. Lol. Ahhhh..
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