X'mas gathering and etc

So like we finally had our Klique's X'mas gathering! =D Quite enjoyed myself although I didn't feel very well. Had some stomach problems. =/ But overall, I think everyone enjoyed themselves. Pasta, pizza, condensed milk fondue (read: white chocolate) FTW.

Got my epilator! Thanks so much guys =D

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On another note: I just woke up from a dream - it was kinda scary, and depressing. Coz I was playing with kittehs at a bus stop, then suddenly Joey came up, looking as if he was waiting for a bus, then he saw me.

Oh and because I was reading a guide on casino games (heheheheh) before I fell asleep, I think I dreamt of a building a hotel on an island that I owned. I remembered that the beach had a nice cove, protected by rocks. The colour of the water was a nice deep blue - but it was deepened because of the storm clouds gathering. T.T

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Gonna test out the theories in the casino games soon. On SpinFever, naturally XD

Coward.

Coward. Coward. Coward.

That's me.

Where was the old me, the one who proclaimed her feelings like there's no tomorrow?

"See la...now you make me sound like..."

"haha! Ya la, I know la." Coz love you mah.

-silence, then some grunts and chuckles-

"sigh"

"why sigh leh? Still thinking about the ball game?"

"No la..."

"Ya la! Ball ball"

"No la...really k. No."

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Unhappiness. And I can't sleep. FREAK. It's 3am liao. zzzzz

Damn

We argued. Again. Over money. Again.

DAMN FUCKING IT.

stressful IH =/

Damn stressful.

1. I was separated from my dear Pink.
- Fine, I give her to Mag for the game XD

2. I was in a team with 2 ppl who I had chemistry with, and 1 person with no chemistry..well, not much to say the least.
- A lot of mistakes, coupled with miscommunication.
- NM3 - go left, go right. GG. 1 incapped, 3 dead by toys.
- NM4 - Bad mistakes - pipe + molo = gg. zzz
- NM5 - My sucky tank. ZZZ.

Overall lost by 50+ points.

STRESSED.

Cover blown though. DAMNIT T.T

And so I realised...

...that I've been kinda shallow in this blog. But that's not what I wanted to blog about today.

Ever since JQ came along, I haven't really been looking at any other guys. Oh you know me - the kinda like "woah, he's kinda cute. EYE CANDY." Kinda thing. Nope. Honest to God, I haven't had that kind of "affliction of crush-love" thing.

So yeah, I'm pretty glad. Coz it was exactly this sorta thing that caused my other relationships to be unstable. I think I'm really happy with JQ, no matter the ups and downs that we've had.

But right now...I feel that I'm on unstable ground again. I could never feel for the other guy...not in the same way as I feel for JQ. And I know he's just...sort of using me.

=/ I don't know how to explain. Too complicated. Sigh.

Back to Bejewled Blitz.

WUT

T.T

So apparently my maxi coins outnumber my ghost wins by 60-70.

Now instead of having 20 ghosts wins to level up, I have about 80. T.T Need to recalculate everything now, I guess. SIGH. Big sigh.

Today went out to escape home, then in the end JQ kenna locked out of his office and since everyone took a day off, he decided to sorta self-declare holiday also, and came to find me. We went to Vivocity to look at some things that I wanted to get as presents for the Klique.

Managed to get some stuff - as usual we spent a lot of time at Daiso. I was tempted to play at bit of Wangan at Vivo, just to get some stars, but there was nobody playing VS. Got one guy got renameable RX8 - one of the recent batch ones..not really interested.. Plus can tell he couldn't really play well. But his gf/friend is like, so paikia looking, so I thought better not lo. Plus I think JQ and I were very tired already so ya, we went off soon.

We also had Soup Spoon. I think he kinda liked it, though it might not be too filling for him. Kinda glad to have spent the day with him. =)

And I found out what Space or Blade was. XD yey!

No feelings...

...just kinda looking at my grades now. Kinda suck.

Sigh. Emo? Not enough sadness or CBF-ness to really bother.

When he said he not coming I was kinda disappointed. That was early in the morning, maybe that's why my entire gameplay kenna affected.

But now he says he's coming =) I feel happy again =DDDD