...define love?
"Love is a many splendoured thing. Love lifts us up to where we belong. All we need is love!"
and not to forget:
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love, and be loved in return"
But we'll see. I'm smarter now...
...I hope.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
For you
The things which I couldn't put into words - it's simply because I'm too proud, too scared to have my pride (and heart) wounded again.
It's really quite sad. To quote that Westlife song..."Fear of rejection kept my love inside; but time is running out, so damn my foolish pride".
I fear rejection, and being hurt. Like I think you mentioned before, my pain threshold is very low. Either way, I didn't want to tell you some things simply because I felt they made me very vulnerable. It's like we're in a swordfight with wooden swords - we know they won't kill, but we leave no opening for which to bruise each other. But I felt that if I said those stuffs, I'd be vulnerable, not to being killed, but to being hurt.
And what could hurt more than being alive to feel the hurt, the pain? At least if I died, it would have been over in an instant.
Or maybe it's coz I'm scared of your reaction. There's still a lot of things I don't know about you. And the future is so uncertain between the both of us - even though outsiders may say otherwise, I'm fearful of committing so much, so fast, so naively like in my past.
And no offense, but once bitten, twice shy: What if you're into me just for the. What if I'm just some..thing.. .
I know it certainly doesn't feel that way. And you seem sincere enough. But ever since then, I've had this issue with trust, and it makes me crazy. It makes me crazy-mad, because my heart tells me to <3, but the suspicious-paranoid part of me tells me to be careful, and that I should not commit anything.
They say that love is just a game. But why, why does it have to be? (No offense to my jiemeis here) Yes, maybe in the 'courtship' process it's meant to be like a game. Maybe this is what I need to learn about courtship - the chase.
It won't be easy, baby, and I'm sorry. I won't make a move till you've made yours, I've made up my mind, as much as it breaks my heart to do so. And remember, I'm an impatient girl, but I won't give up love for money, or material stuff.
~
I'm really glad - you don't mind me writing to you. It's so much easier to organize my thoughts this way.
I won't reveal what will hurt me most here - 'tis ever thus.
It's really quite sad. To quote that Westlife song..."Fear of rejection kept my love inside; but time is running out, so damn my foolish pride".
I fear rejection, and being hurt. Like I think you mentioned before, my pain threshold is very low. Either way, I didn't want to tell you some things simply because I felt they made me very vulnerable. It's like we're in a swordfight with wooden swords - we know they won't kill, but we leave no opening for which to bruise each other. But I felt that if I said those stuffs, I'd be vulnerable, not to being killed, but to being hurt.
And what could hurt more than being alive to feel the hurt, the pain? At least if I died, it would have been over in an instant.
Or maybe it's coz I'm scared of your reaction. There's still a lot of things I don't know about you. And the future is so uncertain between the both of us - even though outsiders may say otherwise, I'm fearful of committing so much, so fast, so naively like in my past.
And no offense, but once bitten, twice shy: What if you're into me just for the. What if I'm just some..thing.. .
I know it certainly doesn't feel that way. And you seem sincere enough. But ever since then, I've had this issue with trust, and it makes me crazy. It makes me crazy-mad, because my heart tells me to <3, but the suspicious-paranoid part of me tells me to be careful, and that I should not commit anything.
They say that love is just a game. But why, why does it have to be? (No offense to my jiemeis here) Yes, maybe in the 'courtship' process it's meant to be like a game. Maybe this is what I need to learn about courtship - the chase.
It won't be easy, baby, and I'm sorry. I won't make a move till you've made yours, I've made up my mind, as much as it breaks my heart to do so. And remember, I'm an impatient girl, but I won't give up love for money, or material stuff.
~
I'm really glad - you don't mind me writing to you. It's so much easier to organize my thoughts this way.
I won't reveal what will hurt me most here - 'tis ever thus.
=/
I feel that I've let ALW down =/
~
Friday: Went DSC. Did a general checkup. Thanks GG88 for pei-ing me, and HIM for pei-ing me at Bugis when I wanted to earn stars =X
Then he pei me go home (the bus home was damn long zzz) and then waited for me while I bathed and changed, and then we went to AMK. Which is why ALW has every right to be angry at me. We were 2.5 hours late.
I'm sorry.
~
Saturday: Gonna be training with my jiemei.
~
Friday: Went DSC. Did a general checkup. Thanks GG88 for pei-ing me, and HIM for pei-ing me at Bugis when I wanted to earn stars =X
Then he pei me go home (the bus home was damn long zzz) and then waited for me while I bathed and changed, and then we went to AMK. Which is why ALW has every right to be angry at me. We were 2.5 hours late.
I'm sorry.
~
Saturday: Gonna be training with my jiemei.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Confession?
"We becoming very attached hor :x"
You think so?
"Or maybe I becoming more attached to you"
...
So, like, is that a confession of sorts?
Coz...
"lols i also a little shy about it but i feel it so i said it"
Oh wow.
*melts*
You think so?
"Or maybe I becoming more attached to you"
...
So, like, is that a confession of sorts?
Coz...
"lols i also a little shy about it but i feel it so i said it"
Oh wow.
*melts*
Monday, May 25, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY REN~
We celebrated Ren's birthday on Sunday =D
So let me keep track of what happened on Thursday first..
Thursday, I hung out with him for almost the whole day. He took care of me like I was a sick child struck with polio after I was "royally fucked". We shared sliced fish soup, and thank god we shared, coz I think after what happened, we couldn't eat a lot. Then I insisted on dessert XD He asked me what kind of desserts I liked, and I told him usually I liked the hot ones like hot cheng tng and black glutinous rice (or like I called it, PULUT HITAM). He was a bit confused when I said "pulut hitam", so I translated it to "hei nuo mi" and he was like, even more confused..then suddenly he said "OH. You mean 'hei zhou'.." (black porridge). Then I was like..nononono, it's hei nuo mi XDDD
ahahaha, he's so damn cute. After that he go and buy. Did I mention that throughout the whole dinner, he didn't sit directly opposite me, but at my 10 o'clock so it was easier to share the dinner; and that he kept laughing at the way I was using my chopsticks to eat rice, coz I was so tired, I couldn't scoop up the rice properly.
After that, we talked abit, and was poking fun at the fact that he might have been cheated coz the dessert he bought for himself was, to me, basically ice-cold bur bur cha cha =.=||| (I had hot cheng tng) Then he again, asked for permission to send me home..."don't worry, I'm sending you home" then he saw my expression, and then said, "CAN?" XD
On the bus home, I fell asleep on his shoulder for a bit, but since I'm not used to a guy sending me home and me falling asleep on his shoulder (usually I hunker down and put my head against the window) my neck ached after a bit so I woke up and just smile at him and looked at his reflection in the glass. He always thought I was just watching the scenery.
After I reached home, I sent him to his busstop. The bus came too fast. X( And he nearly ran away with my 7 bowls of chin chow.
~
FRIDAY
Nothing much happened on Friday. He went overseas so I didn't hang out with him much. I remember I went to L4D and played a bit of wangan. He would only return on Sunday, so X(
~
SATURDAY
Clients brought me to lunch and to Iluma's Arcadia. Lunch was great. Had ribs. Then so full, we felt like the fat, oval-shaped koi at Suntec City. LULZ. Then we went to the Gaming and Electronics fair to walk around. I bought myself a laptop cooling pad for 18. Looks damn nice. I also saw Digipen's booth, and promised myself to bring HIM to the booth tomorrow so that maybe he can look at the courses offered.
Then night time another client brought me to Arcadia. Spent well over 180 dollars on the toy catchers and Big Sweet Land. Ahahaha I took a couple of prizes home. Zals-didi was with me and we took the NR home. Even though I reached home around 1am, I slept around 2.30, busy with my book.
Highlight of the day: getting an SMS from HIM saying that he came back to SG le!!! Oh and watching my client being a pro at the toy catchers =X
~
SUNDAY
Woke up early for church as usual, then met HIM at DBG. Hahaha about the fireman's gloves. I was like wtf?
I was FUNGRY, and craving LJS' lunch menu. So we went to Macdonald House and slacked there for about 15 minutes till they finally displayed the Lunch menu. I tempted him to buy the Crazy Potatoes set (drink + fries + skin-on potato chips covered in cheeeeeeeeeseeeee). The aunty serving us was damn funny. XD She say "wah, you still dare to say you never come here in a long time le.
He's a right mountain turtle.
He dropped a piece of chip with cheese onto his shirt, near his jeans. So funny XD Luckily, I had wet towels XDDD
After brunch, we walked into This Fashion (coz the LJS was a bit stuffy) and enjoyed the aircon =X Oh and he looked at the shirts. Maybe I'll buy one for him when I get to know his shirt size better =X
Always so ah-pek...
After that, we just walked around DBG/Selegie area, and did our stuffs. I really enjoyed the time with him. And he said to me, "It's all for you". I nearly wept (die liao, my English being influenced by Anne Rice) after he said those words. I know I got shed a few tears, and I was blinking furiously so that he wouldn't see them. Then he kept asking me if I'm okay coz I kept blinking. He did touch a bit of wetness in my eyes, then he asked me what's wrong, and I gave him the age-old excuse of...dust.
X(
Oh and when he asked me "Is there anything else you want to say?" I bit my lip, coz I was really tempted to say those fateful words that I nearly said on Thursday.
X( again.
Being the hungry-hungry felhounds we are, we went to a dessert shop in Paradiz? Or Peace center. IDK. Anyway, the place is called Dessert Lover, I think. They have wonderful hot and cold desserts. He ate the hei nuo mi with ice cream (the rice was a bit cold) and I had yam mixed with hei nuo mi. Yum yum. After that we shared a bowl of ahboling with ginger soup. The ginger soup would have been better if it was piping hot, but I really loved the ginger taste.
Brought him to Suntec after that! Made sure he went to the Digipen booth and got information =) Really hope he can fulfill his dreams one day soon.
Then coz I wanted to surprise Ren after everyone was at her house le, we walked around Suntec for a bit. Went to the arcade and played RS with him. Ahahaha so funny. So many mistakes on my part =/ Ahhh and then my post got screwed up so I don't know what to do liao. Anyway, we went to have sliced mango with him at the sky garden, and then his mates saw him, so I quickly pointed them out to him and moved away XDDD then after that, we parted at City Hall.
Oh and KC's fears came true - Ren got on the same train as me. AND just nice, she looked in my direction just as I turned to look and I saw her. So heng, she didn't see me XDDDD
MONDAY, I'm now blogging with a weird feeling in my head. Hope I can meet him later after his massage or something. I'll pass him the piggie before he books in =X
~
On another note: First time I post such a long post =X
So let me keep track of what happened on Thursday first..
Thursday, I hung out with him for almost the whole day. He took care of me like I was a sick child struck with polio after I was "royally fucked". We shared sliced fish soup, and thank god we shared, coz I think after what happened, we couldn't eat a lot. Then I insisted on dessert XD He asked me what kind of desserts I liked, and I told him usually I liked the hot ones like hot cheng tng and black glutinous rice (or like I called it, PULUT HITAM). He was a bit confused when I said "pulut hitam", so I translated it to "hei nuo mi" and he was like, even more confused..then suddenly he said "OH. You mean 'hei zhou'.." (black porridge). Then I was like..nononono, it's hei nuo mi XDDD
ahahaha, he's so damn cute. After that he go and buy. Did I mention that throughout the whole dinner, he didn't sit directly opposite me, but at my 10 o'clock so it was easier to share the dinner; and that he kept laughing at the way I was using my chopsticks to eat rice, coz I was so tired, I couldn't scoop up the rice properly.
After that, we talked abit, and was poking fun at the fact that he might have been cheated coz the dessert he bought for himself was, to me, basically ice-cold bur bur cha cha =.=||| (I had hot cheng tng) Then he again, asked for permission to send me home..."don't worry, I'm sending you home" then he saw my expression, and then said, "CAN?" XD
On the bus home, I fell asleep on his shoulder for a bit, but since I'm not used to a guy sending me home and me falling asleep on his shoulder (usually I hunker down and put my head against the window) my neck ached after a bit so I woke up and just smile at him and looked at his reflection in the glass. He always thought I was just watching the scenery.
After I reached home, I sent him to his busstop. The bus came too fast. X( And he nearly ran away with my 7 bowls of chin chow.
~
FRIDAY
Nothing much happened on Friday. He went overseas so I didn't hang out with him much. I remember I went to L4D and played a bit of wangan. He would only return on Sunday, so X(
~
SATURDAY
Clients brought me to lunch and to Iluma's Arcadia. Lunch was great. Had ribs. Then so full, we felt like the fat, oval-shaped koi at Suntec City. LULZ. Then we went to the Gaming and Electronics fair to walk around. I bought myself a laptop cooling pad for 18. Looks damn nice. I also saw Digipen's booth, and promised myself to bring HIM to the booth tomorrow so that maybe he can look at the courses offered.
Then night time another client brought me to Arcadia. Spent well over 180 dollars on the toy catchers and Big Sweet Land. Ahahaha I took a couple of prizes home. Zals-didi was with me and we took the NR home. Even though I reached home around 1am, I slept around 2.30, busy with my book.
Highlight of the day: getting an SMS from HIM saying that he came back to SG le!!! Oh and watching my client being a pro at the toy catchers =X
~
SUNDAY
Woke up early for church as usual, then met HIM at DBG. Hahaha about the fireman's gloves. I was like wtf?
I was FUNGRY, and craving LJS' lunch menu. So we went to Macdonald House and slacked there for about 15 minutes till they finally displayed the Lunch menu. I tempted him to buy the Crazy Potatoes set (drink + fries + skin-on potato chips covered in cheeeeeeeeeseeeee). The aunty serving us was damn funny. XD She say "wah, you still dare to say you never come here in a long time le.
He's a right mountain turtle.
He dropped a piece of chip with cheese onto his shirt, near his jeans. So funny XD Luckily, I had wet towels XDDD
After brunch, we walked into This Fashion (coz the LJS was a bit stuffy) and enjoyed the aircon =X Oh and he looked at the shirts. Maybe I'll buy one for him when I get to know his shirt size better =X
Always so ah-pek...
After that, we just walked around DBG/Selegie area, and did our stuffs. I really enjoyed the time with him. And he said to me, "It's all for you". I nearly wept (die liao, my English being influenced by Anne Rice) after he said those words. I know I got shed a few tears, and I was blinking furiously so that he wouldn't see them. Then he kept asking me if I'm okay coz I kept blinking. He did touch a bit of wetness in my eyes, then he asked me what's wrong, and I gave him the age-old excuse of...dust.
X(
Oh and when he asked me "Is there anything else you want to say?" I bit my lip, coz I was really tempted to say those fateful words that I nearly said on Thursday.
X( again.
Being the hungry-hungry felhounds we are, we went to a dessert shop in Paradiz? Or Peace center. IDK. Anyway, the place is called Dessert Lover, I think. They have wonderful hot and cold desserts. He ate the hei nuo mi with ice cream (the rice was a bit cold) and I had yam mixed with hei nuo mi. Yum yum. After that we shared a bowl of ahboling with ginger soup. The ginger soup would have been better if it was piping hot, but I really loved the ginger taste.
Brought him to Suntec after that! Made sure he went to the Digipen booth and got information =) Really hope he can fulfill his dreams one day soon.
Then coz I wanted to surprise Ren after everyone was at her house le, we walked around Suntec for a bit. Went to the arcade and played RS with him. Ahahaha so funny. So many mistakes on my part =/ Ahhh and then my post got screwed up so I don't know what to do liao. Anyway, we went to have sliced mango with him at the sky garden, and then his mates saw him, so I quickly pointed them out to him and moved away XDDD then after that, we parted at City Hall.
Oh and KC's fears came true - Ren got on the same train as me. AND just nice, she looked in my direction just as I turned to look and I saw her. So heng, she didn't see me XDDDD
MONDAY, I'm now blogging with a weird feeling in my head. Hope I can meet him later after his massage or something. I'll pass him the piggie before he books in =X
~
On another note: First time I post such a long post =X
Friday, May 22, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Better Let You Go - Niki Chow
還是讓你走
遇見你 那天起 思念總不停
讓我發覺這世界充滿著愛的甜密
我好想把我的愛全部交託給你
一生一世都不分離
情已變 回不去 沒人來決定
我只好選擇離開因為我不夠任性
你讓我變得很孤寂
你讓我痛我沒力氣
傷了 自己
還是讓你走 走了請你不要再回頭
放開你的手 讓愛這種感覺最難受
到底我們的問題是誰的責任
有誰來作平衡
我感到一點點無奈的心疼
還是讓你走 分手兩字很難說出口
放開你的手 是我給你最後的溫柔
不要 說藉口
無法 挽留
Missing you incessantly since that fateful day we met
Allowing me to see that this world is permeated with sweet love
All of my love, I entrusted to you
For an entire lifetime, till death do us part
But when feelings change, there is no way back and no resolve
I must choose to leave because of my inadequate will
You have abandoned me
You have wounded me to where I have no strength left
Myself, I’m hurting
Better let you go
Please go and don’t turn back
Releasing your hand
This type of emotion is most agonizing
In the end, who is to blame for the problems we had?
Who is willing to come and compromise?
Little by little, I became distressed and helpless
Better let you go
But those two words, "break up," are difficult to utter
Releasing your hand
This tenderness is my final gift to you
Excuses need not be made
Holding on is impossible
遇見你 那天起 思念總不停
讓我發覺這世界充滿著愛的甜密
我好想把我的愛全部交託給你
一生一世都不分離
情已變 回不去 沒人來決定
我只好選擇離開因為我不夠任性
你讓我變得很孤寂
你讓我痛我沒力氣
傷了 自己
還是讓你走 走了請你不要再回頭
放開你的手 讓愛這種感覺最難受
到底我們的問題是誰的責任
有誰來作平衡
我感到一點點無奈的心疼
還是讓你走 分手兩字很難說出口
放開你的手 是我給你最後的溫柔
不要 說藉口
無法 挽留
Missing you incessantly since that fateful day we met
Allowing me to see that this world is permeated with sweet love
All of my love, I entrusted to you
For an entire lifetime, till death do us part
But when feelings change, there is no way back and no resolve
I must choose to leave because of my inadequate will
You have abandoned me
You have wounded me to where I have no strength left
Myself, I’m hurting
Better let you go
Please go and don’t turn back
Releasing your hand
This type of emotion is most agonizing
In the end, who is to blame for the problems we had?
Who is willing to come and compromise?
Little by little, I became distressed and helpless
Better let you go
But those two words, "break up," are difficult to utter
Releasing your hand
This tenderness is my final gift to you
Excuses need not be made
Holding on is impossible
Monday, May 18, 2009
Truth
While it may not be the truth, it warms my heart and made me happy.
Maybe I'm just being paranoid. But it's become very hard for me to take a lot of touchy-feely stuff that ppl tell me at face value.
Maybe I'm just being paranoid. But it's become very hard for me to take a lot of touchy-feely stuff that ppl tell me at face value.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
what have I lost?
What have I lost in playing games seriously/competitively?
A lot of friends.
The fun factor - this scares away the newbs when I get too emotional/excited over the game. X(
I'll add on to this list later.
~
Now in school waiting for ALW XD Hope he passes the interview. GAMBATTE ALW-SAN.
A lot of friends.
The fun factor - this scares away the newbs when I get too emotional/excited over the game. X(
I'll add on to this list later.
~
Now in school waiting for ALW XD Hope he passes the interview. GAMBATTE ALW-SAN.
Friday, May 15, 2009
Miss.
Finally removed my hair extensions. So damn hot + ugly since the colour faded so badly.
Miss him a lot. A LOT.
Oh and, missed playing L4D with my jiemei a lot. A lot of action =X
Miss him a lot. A LOT.
Oh and, missed playing L4D with my jiemei a lot. A lot of action =X
Thursday, May 14, 2009
2-3 days
Haven't seen him. I'm trying to wean myself. So that you know, next time, it's not gonna be that hard. ^.^
The past few days, just been doing normal stuffs..facial...Wangan..*phew*. That was crazy, at least. L4D is a must.
I miss him, yet I don't miss him. This is a good sign. It MUST be a good sign. =X
The past few days, just been doing normal stuffs..facial...Wangan..*phew*. That was crazy, at least. L4D is a must.
I miss him, yet I don't miss him. This is a good sign. It MUST be a good sign. =X
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
=/
So like..yeah. Should have bought the 4D number eh?
~
Ever since that day..well, things have been a bit strained. But I finally made him take neoprints with me.
And I'm glad for the time we spent together above the Bras Basah complex. Really enjoyed it - just the hugging, and the talking. The talking was...sad in a way. But, I've never come so clean with a guy before. I nearly cried, I nearly cried. But, I just put my towel to my face and...lol =) He thought I was just wiping perspiration away. And I remembered that I kept looking away from him, coz I didn't want him to see my eyes, my face (my god, I sound just like the Chinese stories in Amy Tan's books now) and my expressions and thoughts.
I remember that I didn't want him to see all these, coz I was scared that it would scare him away. I don't know, after 5 relationships, if I could actually love him the way that I always have. It's like a disease has eaten into my heart where before, I would have known to give my love easily. I'm scared that there will always be a part of me holding back, waiting for the day when he turns on me and tells me that he doesn't love me anymore.
I'm scared that it will be because of this holding-back part, then I will not be able to love him fully, or enjoy my time with him fully - oh, of course I do enjoy every moment that I share with him right now but..I just fear for the future. If we have any.
Some people measure time in days.
Some people measure time in months.
Me, I measure time in moments
The moments that I spent with you.
~
Ever since that day..well, things have been a bit strained. But I finally made him take neoprints with me.
And I'm glad for the time we spent together above the Bras Basah complex. Really enjoyed it - just the hugging, and the talking. The talking was...sad in a way. But, I've never come so clean with a guy before. I nearly cried, I nearly cried. But, I just put my towel to my face and...lol =) He thought I was just wiping perspiration away. And I remembered that I kept looking away from him, coz I didn't want him to see my eyes, my face (my god, I sound just like the Chinese stories in Amy Tan's books now) and my expressions and thoughts.
I remember that I didn't want him to see all these, coz I was scared that it would scare him away. I don't know, after 5 relationships, if I could actually love him the way that I always have. It's like a disease has eaten into my heart where before, I would have known to give my love easily. I'm scared that there will always be a part of me holding back, waiting for the day when he turns on me and tells me that he doesn't love me anymore.
I'm scared that it will be because of this holding-back part, then I will not be able to love him fully, or enjoy my time with him fully - oh, of course I do enjoy every moment that I share with him right now but..I just fear for the future. If we have any.
Some people measure time in days.
Some people measure time in months.
Me, I measure time in moments
The moments that I spent with you.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
What is joy?
Joy is when I spend the time being with someone I really like. You know, all the little things....makes me really happy =)
Thank god for the little crabs that I bought from the Jap place. Kawaii desu!
Thank god for the little crabs that I bought from the Jap place. Kawaii desu!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Shingu Finga~ XDD
"She could be the shining light for her friends, but who will be her shining light?"
=D
Finally it's over. At least now, I won't be disturbed by him le. Thanks CNG-kor and ANA-mei
Yesterday went over to TPY to see HIM...haha..the coconuts were just damn funny. *facepalms* Then we just chatted and sat real close to each other..really really happy just having time to spend with him.
Now I know why people court each other le..This feeling is something that I've never experienced so intensely before, and I'm glad that we're waiting.
Yesterday went over to TPY to see HIM...haha..the coconuts were just damn funny. *facepalms* Then we just chatted and sat real close to each other..really really happy just having time to spend with him.
Now I know why people court each other le..This feeling is something that I've never experienced so intensely before, and I'm glad that we're waiting.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Jogging
I've never felt so much of an emotional roller coaster before.
The day (yesterday, 4th May) started off good - woke up late, got smses, decided to go for french manicure (black tips and pink bottoms, of course) and then..really happy =) played Razing Storm with him. We got chemistry sia..but the covering of each other took a bit of time to get used to XD
Saw TCMI at Wangan for the first time. =/ That's where it started to go down again. Sigh. But thankfully, -HE- was with me..went to my house and I cooked good porridge for dinner. Afterwhich, we went to the jogging track. I really felt refreshed - and really happy that we went jogging together. Exchanged some stories while doing warm up and cooldown walks. Then the stretching part was damn funny - kept reminding me about feeling where the stretch should be. Then we did the jogging...2km and I never stopped (I did flag/stumble a bit coz misstep and stuff). So I'm really proud of myself and happy.
((Or maybe I just felt that I had to show him something..
))
But either way..I really felt better after the jog until I went home - mother nagged about having a guy at home, and seeing all his SMSes. like, damn "aggressive" - that's what HE used. So...*sighs*
Wanted to send HIM off to the busstop so he can take bus home (almost 1.5 hours journey if it was day) but he said to sit down at the playground for a bit. We chatted A LOT. And..I was really glad he held my hand and snuggled a bit. I think I'm the type of person who needs physical love. >.<
I'm just really, really happy last night. So in the end, walked him to the MRT station and it was damn funny coz he kept shooing me home XDDDD
Then while walking home, I spotted him on the platform, and I straightaway smsed him a question.."Do you want me to wait for you?"
Although in my heart I already know MY answer to him.
Well, at least I have an excuse to see him again today =X
The day (yesterday, 4th May) started off good - woke up late, got smses, decided to go for french manicure (black tips and pink bottoms, of course) and then..really happy =) played Razing Storm with him. We got chemistry sia..but the covering of each other took a bit of time to get used to XD
Saw TCMI at Wangan for the first time. =/ That's where it started to go down again. Sigh. But thankfully, -HE- was with me..went to my house and I cooked good porridge for dinner. Afterwhich, we went to the jogging track. I really felt refreshed - and really happy that we went jogging together. Exchanged some stories while doing warm up and cooldown walks. Then the stretching part was damn funny - kept reminding me about feeling where the stretch should be. Then we did the jogging...2km and I never stopped (I did flag/stumble a bit coz misstep and stuff). So I'm really proud of myself and happy.
((Or maybe I just felt that I had to show him something..
))But either way..I really felt better after the jog until I went home - mother nagged about having a guy at home, and seeing all his SMSes. like, damn "aggressive" - that's what HE used. So...*sighs*
Wanted to send HIM off to the busstop so he can take bus home (almost 1.5 hours journey if it was day) but he said to sit down at the playground for a bit. We chatted A LOT. And..I was really glad he held my hand and snuggled a bit. I think I'm the type of person who needs physical love. >.<
I'm just really, really happy last night. So in the end, walked him to the MRT station and it was damn funny coz he kept shooing me home XDDDD
Then while walking home, I spotted him on the platform, and I straightaway smsed him a question.."Do you want me to wait for you?"
Although in my heart I already know MY answer to him.
Well, at least I have an excuse to see him again today =X
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