Remember what we spoke about expectations?

You stupid girl.

Update

★MAY@
Class - S6
Title - Wangan Beginner
Outruns - 3300+
Mileage - >82, 000km+
Current loop - 13th
Ghosts - 1000+

Transferred to DX+. Now waiting.

Hopeful

I hope I get the job with CLC!!

Recently...

Been really busy with school.

I said the 3 words to him on that fateful night. For the record, I've never said it verbally out loud to anyone before.

Going for a modelling thing, hope I get my cake deco job. Planned out something small for his birthday - hope he likes it, coz I really no money to do much =/

IT Show + Body Shop Sale

Overall, bf and I spent:

Roccat:
Kave - 169
Kone - 129 ( <3 this blinky mouse)

Steelseries:
Siberia V2 - 169

Bagman:
DSLR Pouch (to keep my headset + mouse, not for DSLRs) - 19
**was tempted to get a bag that was 80% discounted, but end up my bf buy for himself and said I could trade my Crumpler if I wanted


Following stuffs bought for friends/family:
WD Elements 500G 2.5" - 115
Brother Ink cartridges - 90.90
Lexmark Ink cartridges - 30.10

Random stuffs bought:
Body Shop - I don't have the receipts but I'm sure my bf and I spent at least 150 coz we went there for 3 days, and each day bought stuffs. We both are suckers for Body Shop stuffs >.>

Total: 872SGD. *goes and eats grass for the next 3 months*

Do I need to say anything else?

Intimidation

I kinda realised a lot of guys out there do get intimidated by girls who have went to play at WCG before.

Whenever I mention that I played L4D competitively, they go like 'woaaaah'..and then silence. Then 'woaaaah' again or something like that. Same thing happens when I mention I'm a gamer.

But what I really dislike the most is:

- guys not inviting you to play casually with them, implying that "I don't want to play with SG 4th place..later lose..(lose to girl somemore)"

- guys saying that you cheat/screen others because you have a 5.1 speaker headset and can pinpoint where their boomer/noise-making infected is.

- guys who put you into the not-so-good team, and teaming up with the best of their group to play, and when they win, they make a big thing out of it. Like hello, some games are inherently TEAMWORK.


Thanks Baby for not being intimidated.

301th post

Even as I thought about what I'd said in my previous post, I just realised I'm not in the position to say anything about you looking at other girls.

Sorry.

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry

Sorry that I don't have a body like hers.
Sorry that I don't have anything that look like her assets.
Sorry that I don't shave clean down there.
Sorry that I don't have nice clothes like her.

~

Sorry that I'm not daring to bare like her.
Sorry that I'm not as slutty as her.
Sorry that I'm not thin like her.
Sorry that you have to go see this kind of things instead.


Am I not good enough? But just an hour ago, I was talking to my best guy friend about what happened a few weeks ago - and know that I haven't even told you about it. I feel a shockingly strong stab of jealousy but what can I do right? A guy will be a guy. I'm not as pretty as her, nor as thin - and I know you'd like to hold a thin waist.

So maybe I'll go on diets, go do liposuction. But that won't change your nature. Maybe it'll change mine. But not yours. Because no one can really ever change our nature. It's what we're born with. It's what we're born to.

Looking is not the same as doing. Of course I know that. It's one of the rules of this game, isn't it?

Tattoo

Gonna get a tattoo of angel wings on my back. Yes yes, I've been advised it's too big for a 1st time tattoo but I've already been thinking about this in a long time.

Why am I getting this?That's how/what I feel. Especially now when Baby and I are not feeling too good.