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"our purpose in life is to bring each other great joy and fulfillment (not just in....) but a fuller and purpose driven life."

How true.

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Spent almost an entire day with him. I'm only recording this down coz I never want to forget him - I don't care what you guys think of me.

Fell asleep in each others arms..sorta. I didn't sleep well coz I'm not used to having someone sleep beside me (To quote something I read from someone's MSN: "I cant sleep without you sleeping next to me. And we both know, that i need to fall out of love with you"). I KNOW for sure he didn't sleep very well too. Ended up it became like a sorta competition to see who could sleep first. Ah-hahahahaha.

Then the next morning, we woke up..*giggles at how she woke him up, and then at what he did..and then what happened..and then finally the peaceful sleep* ..then we lazed around till like 3pm. Went for lunch (had chwee kueh + sugarcane + teasing from Peanut Uncle) then went back home where he explored my bookcase. We read some books together, just...sitting side by side quietly reading.

*snickers* and he still say he monk sia X)

It was a good day. Just makes me wonder...is he holding back coz I'm working in such a line? or..what? Why can't he afford to......

Why?

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On another note: broke my C1 in. 52'0XX. DAMNIT. Last corner >.<

On another note: saw Rusco again. =/

On another note: FINALLY found out who Cr4zy is XD

4th place

We did well, didn't we? *emo*

X( Well, I still feel bad.

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But happy at the same time. Eye Candy called me, and consoled me somewhat. Then HE smsed me and told me..not to be sad too much, and that he'll come to find me when he next books out. That's great. I'm really happy to hang out with him =)

He came down on Saturday and pei me >.<

I'm starting to like him, but I think it'll be a period of time before we actually become a thing.

I remembered that I stumbled yesterday, after looking at the R34 - must have been pretty tired. He grabbed my hand..and when I tried to hold on to it, he said, "I'm sorry, but you know I can't afford to.."

*sighs* Maybe he just..wants no commitments. IDK. Being single right now..is uncomplicating and good.



If only I could love him freely, openly. - This is the 2nd time I've mentioned this le.

Gonna quit

For the first time in my life, I had to throw away so many buns.

I quit. I honestly, seriously, quit.

PD Opening!!

So exciting. New shop, new boss.

Explicit post

Don't read if you can't tahan sex. Just something I thought up of.

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"Come here" He whispered, sitting at the corner of the bed and beckoning to her to sit with her back to him. Hesitantly, she sat down and smiled tentatively at him, catching his gaze in the mirror.

His hands travelled to her breasts, squeezing their fullness in his palms, rolling the dark peaks between his fingers. His eyes never left her face, watching her facial features as they relaxed into a sigh of pleasure. He pulled her close, burying his face into her neck and kissing the soft flesh there.

For a long while, they sat there in silence, hugging to keep warm in the cold hotel room. His fingers seared her skin as they travelled all over her upper body. When they started to knead the corded muscles in her shoulders, she stiffened and he stopped.

"I'm sorry...massages make me more tense" She said >.<

He slid back on the bed, guiding her till she laid down beside him. Then he half sat up, and explored her body, kneading corded muscles when he found them, or simply squeezing the meatier parts of her for his own enjoyment. When he pushed apart her legs, catching her right one with his own legs to prevent her from closing them, she tensed.

"What's wrong?"

"Don't look there la..I shy"

"I haven't looked at one in a long time. Let me see la.....Hmmm..strange." He frowned up at her, as his fingers lightly touched her dewy folds.

Panic started to course through her veins, and she almost sat bolt upright if not for his restraining hand on her tummy, "What? What?!"

"Why you so wet?" He applied strokes to her lips, teasing a soft moan from her.

"I..I..think it's from our bathe just now" She said, a sheepish note in her voice.

"Yeah right.." He was moving his fingers faster now, lightly nipping at her flesh. "I don't think so."

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That's all I need to record. The rest will come naturally, I think.

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Hope I can see him again.

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Going for L4D Zombie Mania. Damn exciting + stressful

Emo. Again.

Morning wake up, was quite worried about the number of PMs that I may have gotten, so I went online to check. So many things. Never mind. Halfway through, got a PM from that PigHead. Who cares about his cousin's party? Like I mentioned to a friend..

BAH.

After that, chatted with friends for a bit in the chatroom - got some guy keep PMing me trying to play on my feelings.

Nearly blasted him before I remembered that I'm supposed to be a calm, nice girl.

Went out. Dropped by DBG. Now I know why I stopped playing Wangan.

"Don't ever call me 'Jie' again"

It broke my heart.

Who knew

Working in this line was so much hardwork? I guess I asked for it. I must be careful! I must be safe.

#3

I'll never forget him.

Mmmmm

It was damn good. >.< First time I felt so good..there.

*screams*

Ohh it was pain at first, but it was worth it in the end. Kind of weird though. Connection is there, but like frequency wrong...idk. But god. He's damn nice. - 14th April 2009

YEY~

Job 2 starts tomorrow, 15th April 2009, Wed, 6.30pm. >.<

Hope it works out fine~

Update

★MAY@
Class - S8
Title - C1 Maya
Outruns - 2400+
Mileage - 66, 900km+
Current loop - 11th
Ghosts - 800+


Should I continue with this card, or get that new one? But then again, I'm close to CBF with Wangan..

Muie Rendera

One of the best renditions I've heard while searching on Youtube:




The male voices sound so damn man! XD

Confession? =/

"I loved you" - Note the past tense. I didn't want to say anything else for fear of creating awkwardness in a conversation that was going well.

I dunno if he (EC) knows that I still do. Even after so long, there's probably still a spark of hope in me that maybe one day.... *shakes head* argh. I doubt it. He doesn't like me THAT way.

We've been chatting steadily from like 1am till 4am now. It's easy to talk to him. IDK why. Maybe it's because of our long friendship that's why it's so easy to talk about ourselves and the games etc etc. It flows smoothly too.

Maybe he's holding back because to him, I'm multifaceted. I don't blame him for that; I don't want to hurt him because I am so different in so many ways. Maybe I'm not his type - that kind of rejection I can understand but...if it was because of another reason, I'd just want to know..to..better myself as a whole, I guess.

I need to be brought down a peg or two, either way. *bitter laugh*

But why? I understand that he doesn't want to be hurt either.

I just realised that I'm being the selfish one here (hur hur hur, even though I'll be selling buns, cookies, cakes and waffles...) by imposing my feelings on him to gain physical affection and stuff. Sigh. I've become that evil.


M: i'm scared to love because i realise in the end, i always hurt those people that i love . do you think so?
EC: hmm i nt sure...i was not loved by u b4
M: i loved you once,...


If only I could love him freely, openly.

X(

It was a mistake to go today. I didn't feel connected at all. The only joy was when I chatted with GLaa and played MT tag. That's all. No other joy. I felt so much like an outcast. Maybe this is a signal for me to really, really stop MT for the time being...

Razing Storm was nice though. Need to switch mentality away from TC kind of graphics to this new system. The gun's heavy but I guess I'll get used to it. Pedal's the same as TC4. No half-pedal X(

It's pretty bug free too, unlike HOTD4 where off-screen can still attack you. lolx.

Well. Emoing now. But feeling better coz of Sango-baby. Thanks sweet =)

@.@

Just saw my schedule. Looks like I may not have time for Job 2 after all.

On another note:

It's a free world. Why be so bothered if someone does this or that? Don't give the "holier-than-thou" attitude la, fucker.

The Great Escape

"...we are finally free tonight"

Finally over. Just the exams to tackle now.

I think what Xiao Ding Dang has said..is really true. I think..I think...

But no, I'll stay where I am right now. If I am asked to leave..fine. If not, it's the friendship and quality that should count.

suddenly itching to play wangan.


On another note, I got my schedule for work liao.

Wednesdays and Saturdays off. Everyday else, morning till 2.30pm. Sounds good to me. That means I actually do have time for Job 2. Which..is good, I think.

I really need to talk to my other kor now.

Retirement

CNG-kor has retired.

Should I retire too?


I'm too young to retire.

Yet I feel so old.

*blows out her breath*

Wow. What a rush.

I think I know why now.


*catches her breath*

Another rush. Wow. It was damn good.

PD

Well. PD just got a new boss. Lady boss. Wonder how it'll be like. Smaller shop too. X( No more baked-at-the-location-bread.

Wonder how the waffles will be like too. I hope the rent will be lower, so it's much easier. I don't mind going back there to work, since...well, it is convenient after all..and also can tiao the time so that I got time for job 2 too XDDD

Right..

Screwed up presentation by using wrong version, I think =.=

Me is stupid girl.

In school

Yes, in school at this unearthly hour. Cracking my brains about how to do VB. Now I remember why I prefer Java a whole lot more.

This sux. We can't do anything much at this point in time. In about 5 hours we'll be presenting our incomplete work. While one part of me says that our uber 1337 coding will wow the class (all thanks to WHY) and thus we can abandon parts of the project, the other (programmer) part of me says that we ought to be able to code this till the end.

But my god. I really hope C and G and Prof would understand.