Emo much?

Silences make the real conversations between friends. Not the saying, but the never needing to say, is what counts.

~

Chaos often breeds life, when order breeds habit

One more time

Just one more chance for him. He's on level ground now.

~

Anyway, I had a fun time with Alert yesterday evening, coz of the 2 noobs who kept giving his R34 stars. I was like, hmmm...okay..you wanna play with my godbro like that when he's being so friendly with you? XDDD

What Bear said....

...was very true.

"Name me 3 things that you and him did, and both of you were very happy" - 0
"Name me 3 things that he has done for you that has made you very happy" - 0
"When in the arcade, does he go and catch toys for you, or at least made it worth your time to go to the arcade with him, even though you can play Wangan as well?" - 0


"Just clean break with him"


When I smsed him last night, he didn't reply. One more time, and I'll really let go. I understand it's the pride, but..*sighs*

Update

★MAY@
Class - S8
Title - Spirit of a True Artisan
Outruns - 2120+
Mileage - 60, 362km
Stories - 1104
Ghosts - 800+


Ahhhh

XD

Replies

@Alert: Lol about the C1 in timing. The thing is: I suddenly seem to keep banging the walls and stuff. I know I have the excuse of Rusco and I breaking up, but...I just IDK la.

anyway, I highly doubt I will talk about it to many ppl. It's just too painful. That night I even called Roy (Wangan, you know, the one that used to have long hair? My godbro la) who didn't pick up, one of my online buddies, and my best friend. When my best friend (a guy) answered, I totally like broke down on the phone with him. =/


@Geo: Laling =) Thanks =) =)

='(

Another chapter in my life is closed. I don't know if it'll be reopened...but I highly doubt it. Maybe he will understand. Maybe what BEST said was true - sometimes a guy needs to experience a harsh lesson to really appreciate his loss.

Told Rusco that we should just be friends. Or at best, break up.

We both cried a lot today. It felt really really painful. But, at least now, I feel relieved. But I really hope he's okay. I really, really hope he's okay. He cried =(

I just hope, that PIGPIG will understand my needs, and not 'move in' on me so fast, but at least give me some time to breathe and catch my breath.

Really quite flattered by what he said. To Timo, and to Mei.

Thanks for those who have always supported me.

Replies and CNY eve and stuffs

@Alert: hey, I really don't mind listening. It was just that, that day I had a lot of things on my mind, so I wasn't really in the 'mood' to listen much. Sorry =( And Wangan that day was really me in my worst, off-form...form =/

@Geo laling~ I missed you =)

@Anna-mei: Glad that you broke your Yoko record...You very evil, laugh at me T.T *emoing liao*

But I think, Timo talked to him about it liao. And we didn't settle it over TRD dinner coz we welcomed the new bloods into the team =D


ANYWAY!

TRD reunion dinner was a blast! I was waiteress cum chef -.-''' And they didn't let me drink much beer =(

Maya: *whines* WAIIIIII I WANT BEEEERRR...WAIIII

BearZ: No. No. No. Read my lips. N-O. NO.

Maya: *emos*

lolx But I think it was damn fun, the entire day. And the best thing? C1 inbound, broke it till 2'53'002 - Just a few milliseconds away from the 2'52'9** timing that Bear set for me. And after that? It was constant 2'53 all the way. Really heartened.

Then today, CNY eve, while waiting for Galaa @ Bugis, I thought I might as well play. Played a bit of battle with the SBH guy, and 2 other guys I think, then TA-ed. Oh man. TA was damn shiok! C1 in...BREAK AGAIN! 52'6** =D 3rd checkpoint till end was still SLOW! I wanna constant '52!

After that, went to battle again with some aqquaintances...had a lot of fun lolx. Galaa turned up and we went off to get stuff done. He and his shopping lolx.

Then went back to Bugis - surprise surprise. TCS-boss was there. Battled a bit with him and *Fish. *mood kind of darken liao* Then kept playing and playing till SBS-Z came. Played a few rounds then I ciaozed home. Didn't know if I should cab or not.

Now, just feeling really happy and sleepy. *stretches* I wanna L4D XD

Bluetooth Headset~

Thanks to Liping, Wanz and Qingz for supporting me in my bid to get a bluetooth headset!! XDD

I just bought mine yesterday.. It was the last one I think. At first I wanted the cheaper one, but they didn't have stock, so actually end up I got the one I WANTED from the very start. LOLX.

This morning got woken up by CK-PIGPIG XDDDD so I used the headset and lie in bed and chatted with him.

No idea what to do now - emotionally and physically. I'll be very honest here - I don't even know if CK-PIGPIG wants to get together with me just because he's been single so long, and I'm prob the only girl around him in wangan? or that he really, really likes me? (i'd be damn flattered by the latter, but only if it was sincere and true lolx)

IDK LA.

Need to rush off for choir liao. Kind of regret yesterday. Lolx. =(

Hair extensions all falling out. Pissed off at their service. Don't think I'll go back to Milly's 2. Maybe will head to Milly's 1 to fix my hair today or something like that. Dunno yet.

Nice.

It was damn nice.

It can be on a regular basis. I seriously don't mind. XDD

Day of Impulse 2

I'm just grateful to Geo laling for listening to me. I felt really "oppressed" with this issue. Couldn't talk to anyone in SG because...we're all so 'morally upright' and uptight and whatever.

Yet, come to think of it. I'm doing it because..I want to find 'love' - this elusive concept that's shared between a guy and a girl. It would be like my other entry - No Longer too Crystal to Love .

But this is never gonna happen. I will not let myself do this. I've said already "I don't think...I will ever love anyone after I break with this one".

Of course, I would still love my girlfriends and stuff la. That is a different kind of love?

It's all going around and around -.-'''

But at least, thanks to Geo I feel..really quite 'excited' now...?




"...and love would never be a remote consideration"

Hair extensions

Disappointed. Kind of stunned. Hope it'll look good on me once I've washed and blown it dry. *crosses fingers*

Another day of impulse coming up. I hope nothing screws up. I hope I'd enjoy it. It's been a long time since I've enjoyed anything.

So many things depend on 'hope'.


~~~~

Sinking.....
By: Author Unknown

Once upon a time, there was an island where all feelings lived Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others including Love.

One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all repaired their boats and left. Love was the only one who stayed.

Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment. When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask for help. Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you." Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel.

"Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered. Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, "Sadness, let me Go with you." "Oh...Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!" Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask the elder her name. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way.

Love realizing how much he owed the elder asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who helped me?" "It was Time," Knowledge answered. "Time?" asked.

Love. "But why did Time help me?"

Knowledge smiled with deep Wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

For Geo Laling~

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may, come what may
I will love you

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place...

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Lalings @ WME XDDDD

"because he doesnt care like me and darren" - Geo

"I think you should go try that dress on >.> don't leave the camera outside the dresser, it'll get stolen <.<" -Arty

"laling, they're bullying me...I DO CARE >:3....I CARE SO MUCH" - Arty

Emo. Freaking Emo.

冬の妖精たちが輝き 舞い降りてくる
何もすることないから　笑顔の写真　くちづけた
約束した映画の長い列に　二人してもう　並ぶことはないの？
だけど　心は そばにいるから
友達にも miss you　もう二度と 戻れない

あなたが 好きで 会いたくて
キスが 百億の 雪を 伝うの
どこかで 偶然に 巡り 会える日まで
忘れなくても baby　好きでも いいですか？
ずっと　忘れない…

たった 一人ぼっちの　自分に 気づいた 瞬間
本当の 寂しさがね 溢れては また 込み上げる
人を愛す そんな想いを　今
大切だって　忘れないって 思う
この アドレスを 何度 かえても
その 声も 夢も 私を 離れないの
時が 流れて　違う 恋しても
あなたを想い出すでしょう
出會えた 運命が　交わした ぬくもりが
「あなたで良かった」って　心から言えるよ
いつか 逢えるまで …

未來は can't stop　やって来る
悲しいほど はやく forever
幸せだって 傷付いたって
誰かを 愛する 時 just alive
あなたが 好きで 会いたくて
キスが百億の雪を つたうの
どこかで偶然に巡り 会える日まで
忘れなくても baby　好きでもいいですか？
ずっと　忘れない…

~

As shining winter fairies come floating down
I kissed your smiling picture because I had nothing else to do
At that long line outside of the movies, we vowed
To never stand in line here together again
But since my heart is next to yours
I still miss you even as a friend
But I can't turn back ever again

I love you, I want to see you again
With a kiss, expressed alongside ten billion snowflakes
Until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace
Baby, even if you forget me
Is it okay for me to still love you?
I'll never forget you

Since the moment that I was alone,
I've realised what true loneliness is
These overwhelming feelings in my heart that won't stop flowing out
Now, the way to love a person
Is so important that I think a person shouldn't forget it
No matter how many times my address changes
I'll never let go of that voice or that dream

Even if you love someone else as time flows by
I'll still remember you
Our destined meeting and the warmth we shared
I'm glad that it was you, and I can say it from my heart
Until we meet someday again

We can't stop the future from coming
The feeling of sadness can quickly become forever
Even if I get wounded when I'm happy
When I've fallen in love with a someone
Just alive

I love you, I want to see you again
With a kiss, expressed alongside ten billion snowflakes
Until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace
Baby, even if you forget me
Is it okay for me to still love you?
I'll never forget you

Realism

"he looked like a person who cannot take comments" - SNGZ

"Look like he always bo chup you" - MK & SNGZ & other random ppl


*sighs*

CHIONG CAT ARHHH

CHIONGING!!

XDDDDD

I also just realised almost everyday I'm eating, usually, Set A from Mr. Bean. Like, wth, addicted to their Tuna pancake XDDD

Situations in L4D v1

I don't know. Just felt like blogging. Had a good time at L4D at AMK. XD a lot of stunts came out.

Situation 1 ("Nice one")
ALW throws molotov after opening the emergency door
Molotov lands
ALW closes emergency door
Maya sees flames licking the door and starts backing away, albeit slowly, since she's in red health
Maya then notes a propane tank just in the corner, beside the door and desperately moves back as fast as she can.
Maya screeches.
Propane tank explodes.
ALW incapacitated Maya.

LOL~


Situation 2 (Retribution)
GM01 shot ALW 1 time.
ALW incapacitated GM01.


Situation 3 (Hunter Awareness)
Maya was incapacitated.
A hunter has pounced on JUL, who is less than a meter behind Maya.
Random Person is helping Maya up.
JUL screeching for help.
ALW kills Hunter.


Situation 4 (just before corn field)
-Witch Moan-
-Witch Groans softly-
-Witch Surprised-
-ALW runs past witch-
-JUL runs past witch-
-Random person startled the witch-
ALW/JUL: "Wth? Didn't even see her"


Situation 5 (Shooting Star)
Maya creeping past tank towards JUL
Tank yells
Tank attacks
Maya is attacked and flies off the roof into the bushes
JUL sees Maya flying like a shooting star
Maya moves slowly back to the front of the house
Dark S is healing behind her
Hunter alert
Maya is healing
A hunter has pounced on Dark S
Maya stops healing and moves slowly to Dark S (trying to whack the hunter off with her medpack)
ALW kills Hunter
All make their way back to closet on 2nd floor
JUL starts laughing (as he recalls the shooting star event)


Situation 6 (Caged Tank)
Elevator doors open
Tank music plays
All: "SO FAST?!"
Everyone looks around for the tank
JUL sees tank stuck between wood bars
ZUA ARHH!!!

Training

DRINKS PUNISHMENT

Really made me want to play properly. THen again, I have my own motivation of minusing stars XD

Really felt sick after it though. Probably coz of the tea inside, and me not eating enough before hand T.T

Went home early and played L4D. The past 2 days have been playing it as much as possible. Gonna get my FF down, and get to know the maps better.

Witch is fun xDD

L4D!!!

OMG. Expert is damn hiong. The tank is freaking fast XDDDDD

Really learnt to control my ff now. Hope, that in the upcoming games I will be able to reduce it to almost 0% =D


Need to rush off for CCA now. damn. XDD Enjoyment and self-indulgence XD

Sweets, take care XD

Garlic Spread

The garlic spread I just did rox my sox.

XDDD

Hope Mi will enjoy it tomorrow =)

JOY

HAPPINESS!!

OMG!

THE FEELING IS FREAKING BACK!

WTH!

TRAINING TIME - WATCH OUT!!


weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

I'm so happy, the old old feeling of one of the first few settings is back!!! *dances* Can't wait to play, can't wait to play!!

Then after our session at DBG, GayLo and I went to L4D. Now I know why ppl go to LAN shop. Can't wait for tomorrow when I'll meet up with Alwin and co. Hope I don't screw it up like the other 2 ppl that screwed up when GayLo and I played. T.T

After I went home, I think I pangseh-ed Sweets =(( VERY VERY VERY SORRY!! =((((((

T.T

Now in OOAD. Relearning what I've lost. =D Shuangness.

3rd of Day school

Woo hoo.

Slightly late.

Zone X promos are coming!! XD

Update

★MAY@
Class - S8
Title - The Place for Endless Driving
Outruns - 2080+
Mileage - 56,000km+
Current loop - 11th
Ghosts - 790


Realised I haven't updated in a long time.

I guess, the full circle thing about my car's settings really is getting to me. IDK WHY THOUGH. T.T

Settings...again

And so the circle is now complete.

The old Maya is reborn in the wake of DX.

Funny how everything came together.

Ahh..Time to test this old setting on a new battleground.

1st Day of School

My BGS prof is damn funny!!

But kind of weird, since I don't know most ppl here except for a few familiar faces.

Then it feels like my typing is very loud XD

More updates later

Setting

Just redid the settings for my car.

Damn. Should have listened much?

Now to test it out in battle.

Hope not to embarrass myself.

Project Plans

Updated my project plans. Now need to rethink carefully liao. Somehow, I feel that SSS is really within my reach now.

Camp

Going for camp in half an hour.

Gonna feel weird.

Gonna be itching to try my setting out in battle.

Gonna have to remember to get myself down to DBG and check prices.

Gonna sms the group about the training place. Really BTH the regs at DBG liao.

Gonna NOT sms Sango?

Gonna NOT sms eye candy2?

Gonna sms Galaa - lol



Too bad I can't dota in school. Too lag!..

Oh well.