Oh wow.

He's actually..supportive of me doing it.

*does her shy thing* oh god. >.<>.<

I'd definitely get you some pictures =)

New settings

So fast, so light.

Or like what Kor told me "you're not used to it yet. you're still used to that slow, heavy setting of your GDB-F. Take some time to run TA with your car...you see, you bang you still can get '53.."

Updated my settings.



"I'm incomplete without you"

How true.

Save up for calling cards!!

I hope you enjoy your birthday, sweet<3.

OH GOD.

600AUSD.

OH GOD.

WHAT AM I GONNA SAY TO HIS PARENTS? WHAT ARE THEY GONNA SAY TO ME?

OH GOD OH GOD.

*wails*

Gamers Irregular

*sighs*

Disappointment. No one has turned up, or even opened the room for the session today. The security uncles were like "wah, 1 hour left leh..." then I was like "no choice...book liao, at least try to use lo...

*sighs*

Sadded. Not even our own members turn up. Is gaming really that wrong in their eyes?

*sighs*

Roy, Yuuki and the gang

Not as if they are some kind of gang lah.

Today met up with Yuuki.. Early morning at PS Star Fact playing music games lolx. After that we went down to DBG...played a bit of Wangan, then DDR-ed. While DDRing, I looked towards the Wangan machines and ROY KOR WAS THERE?!

OMG~

I was like, so damn darn happy to see him again after so long!!! >.< Kind of felt bad coz I totally forgot about Yuuki and etc T.T

Also Bestie...kind of felt that we pangsehed him. *sighs*

I can perfect understand why Bugis is a no-go. Same reasons as me, sorta, I guess.

Met up with Veil too. lolx. seems like he heard about my MR2 =.='''' like wth? I only used it back then for a bit, that's all. Now, cbf tune it.

Today was a good day - just that I forgot about CAT meeting. OH GOD.

~

Yesterday, 23rd Feb 2009 was the day that TRA was officially reopened? XD

God, it feels awful to have such a burden now. >.<

Update

★MAY@
Class - S8
Title - Keep On Running
Outruns - 2188+
Mileage - 62, 118km
Current loop - 11th
Ghosts - 790+


Sigh. When will I enjoy my car once again?

Time to stop TA, yet I can't help but to try and try to push myself again and again

TC4 and Kids

FUCKING.

WASTE.

OF.

MY.

TIME.


When I saw them, they just reminded me of kids who want to try to break highscores, and then brag to their friends about it. I must have tired of TC4 a long time back when we finally all recovered from injuries from playing TC4 too much - need I describe CTS and twisted ankle? - we started doing stunts like dual wielding TC4 LOLX.

But..*sighs*

I just don't know why I feel so emo right now? Maybe it's coz I miss my Arty laling. There IS something painful called heartache.

Reprise - TC4

Great.

I have to go teach a kid TC4.

On thr bright side, I can hang with ALW and go to Sunshine plaza to see what I can get for Arty ^^

LOL

"Are you gunna go?...Well, don't let him pressure you into anything..."

I guess he asked.

A: "Well dunno. Im not some insane boyfriend who's gunna say no to you hanging out with other guys and all, so I guess you can go out and have fun lol"
M: "So you're my boyfriend? X="
A: "Can I be?"
M: "Instant upgrade! XD"
A: "Aaawesome. Strike Arty Laling receives a refit with special boyfriend armaments and armour"


LOLX

but I just..panicked when Epic Player asked me out to Yum Cha. Sighs.

Bugis. Again.

Just came back from there again. Saw the idiot, and can tell, he aimed me the most and the hardest. Again, I can take it. Fine.

I had fun with best's car, I guess. Gained some and lost some stars for myself too.

Then I saw TCS and LorDz. Then I saw Rusco.

Kind of emo how we said hi and bye only. Didn't talk much. Heck. Didn't talk at all.

CAT is 1.5 questions away from completion. Heck the 1st question. I need my sleep. LOLX


Bought the name thing for Arty. Lol @ Best, who was like "get the chain" after he heard Arty saying it. I hope Arty likes it, that's all. DO YOU WANT ME TO POST A PICTURE OF IT? XDDDD

I realised something: "We're meant to lose the people we love. How else are we supposed to know how important they are?"

Oh god. Is this why I can't love anyone? Is this why I hold those I love at arm's length, never truly letting them into my life?

Econs and Wangan

Feeling kind of emo. Didn't study for it. Can't find my textbook on it.

Plans..
Finish up last question for CAT
Meet up with FE
Finish up 1st 2 questions for CAT
Do emailers for Gamers Irregular
Send out emailers for GI
Do OOAD!!!! CHIONG LIAO ARH. HUAT ARHH
Do CAT project


I think I just feel down because I missed him so much. Lolx. I can't wait to see my phone bill =.=

~

I think it's time for me to stop playing TA. I just can't help but feel that I could constant 2'52 all the time. And...the R32 can do something my own car can't. It's because of the size, I'm guessing. But I don't wanna throw myself onto the R32.

Have to save up money-wise for my unconfirmed trip to Aust. And Project Senbatsuru Senbazuru isn't looking too good. I can't fold fast enough, because I emphasize so much on the prettiness as well.

And where the heck am I gonna get a container big enough for 1000 cranes? ARGH

Sigh

Argh. Missing you.

How was K? XD

Er...

The ring worn on the right hand, crown turned inward tells your heart is yet unoccupied, worn with the crown turned outwards reveals love is being considered. Worn on the left hand the crown turned outward shows all, your heart is truly spoken for.


Lolx.

Okay, so now I'm wearing it with the crown turned outwards. Considering =) lolx.

lolx. I watched the video that Dare posted of Arty and Mike. XD

Where my Claddagh ring is

"Still not over him? Any particular reason?"

- Yeah, still not over him. Everytime I play Wangan, I lose my mood and focus quickly because I remember the times we'd play Wangan together, no matter how badly.
- Maybe because he's been the longest with me. Slightly under 1 year. I know it's quite..stunning. It can very well mean that I'm a 'loose' woman, but...*sighs* It's sooooo hard to explain here. And because we've been the longest together, it was nice, for a bit. Sigh. Time Factor. You know.

So, is everything else a confession? How am I supposed to understand this? There's so many things that's..making me so worried about going into a relationship with you.

Or maybe it's just my secret wish (not so secret anymore if I'm gonna write about it here, eh?) to..be..asked. Because, right now, I don't rightly know what's going on. Yes, we've sort of confessed, but what's gonna happen next?

~

"Wearing it on your left yet?"

No..not yet. Not even when I got home from the airport (after sending Wongster-didi off to Darwin!) and found my ring in the toilet, where I last left it. I immediately put it back on my right middle finger, crown turned in. Even now, when I'm typing this in the darkness of my room and the only light is from my laptop...the light reflects off this Claddagh ring and makes me wonder, when will I be able to happily wear it on my left hand.


I'm sorry, laling.

Post V-Day

Come to think of it, after I came home from V Day (reached home around 0030..a first, since almost every Saturday I come home around 3am..) I felt really happy (except for the headache that was making my head swim) coz I felt..it was kind of well-spent.

Spent most of my day playing L4D. Had a couple of good but not satisfying games. I mean - normal is really normal now compared to Expert/Versus.

Most of the time I was doing stupid stuff. Like, friendly fire and viciously attacking my own teammates...hahah -.-'''

I realised that I kind of don't feel anything for Zomzom anymore? Confirms that my feelings the other time were just..of impulse, nothing more, I guess. Or is it because I'm hanging more with Arty now? But I really like to think it's because while Zomzom and I SEEM close, we aren't really THAT close. Or rather, not close in the way I thought we would be. I think it's good, because while he IS nice, I don't know if he's my type.

And then there's the Little Bear. He's cute. Really cute. And while he's PRC, he's like, always opening the door for me, very gentlemanly. Even lets me choose table during prata session. Lolx. But, probably only because I think he knows how frustrated I feel during the gaming sessions. OH WELL. HE'S DAMN CUTE XD really reminds me of Tears from Dragon Boys. LOLOLOLX

ARTY LALING, DON'T BE JEALOUS! XD *rubs his head*

Then the other half of the time at AMK lanshop, I was texting Arty. Lolx. It was freaking funny. Kind of reminds me of Fair Phyllis and all the hidden nuances. I really hope that Mi allows me to go overseas around May..Think I'll really try to save up soon. Anyway, my Wangan money is already in my Tapz card anyway..

Not that THAT was a good thing to spread =/ XDDD

Well, I wanna lie down for a bit. Headache still getting to me. Phone needs charging, and I need to close my eyes for a bit. Then I'll head to DBG, get the 5.5l of water, and lug it to AMK. zzzz

V Day

Another V Day spent alone. With no one special.

Funny, I don't recall a single memorable V day at all, where someone would bring me out, treat me to good food, or get me a nice present..

*sighs* Arty's asking me about the Claddagh ring now. lolx.

TOO MUCH THINKING. ARGH. TO AMK, NOW!

Laling quotes

Arty:

• but if he hurts you, there's gunna be hell to pay...
• It's no fun in dreamland without Maya laling
• He's got plenty of ladies. You're mine
• Naah. Laling, I'm an innocent little boy ^^
• Ore wa daredato mote yaru!
• There's normal spooning and sexy spooning
• I'm not hurt yet?...and how could my loli maid be evil?
• Lol, well, i'm just happy to talk to such a nice person, pity you're on a different continent
• Lol, it's all up to you. I can't get angry at laling XD
• =3 how could you miss me if you've never been with me? xD
• @_@ Only I'm allowed to have you for lunch
• I wish I was there too. We could spoon to keep warm lol
• Combine! SUPA STORAIKU RARING! MOKYOH SURU!
• im bad to anyone who harasses my woman
• ill make you a woman >.>
• =( don't be so emo. Cheer up a little. Anything I can do to make you feel better?
• Well, I don't think I can get over that quick...But how about a rose for my valentine? @->->---
• But i'm the king! I make the rules. You just sit there and look good haha. Naaaa. You can make some rules, but I think this time I am most definitely right.
• I would personally bake you an entire tray for a kiss
• I'll dance with you :3
• Laling I rly miss you =3
• Lol. I miss you too...Wish we could have spent vday together...
• I'll just have to wait for you here....Miss you so much sweetie
• Love you more..."we're not having this argument XD"....Okay, equal love then.
• As long as I'm your king, that's cool XD
• Haha. I'm not kawaii! I'm cool, tough and awesome lol
• "Lol I'm not that drunk, baby...not even tipsy atm" "Oh damn. And I was thinking of ways to take advantage of you when you were drunk" "Oh...suddenly I feel drunk now"
• Lol you saw that now...I'm not gonna be too happy if I have to carry you home
• Haha. You're my hugging action laling
• Aww. Poor laling. If you were here, I'd lie with you and cuddle you till we were both asleep
• Baby, I miss you so much though
• Lol not me. I'm faithful to laling
• oh C'mon, you're not gonna hold that against me are you =D i can still be plenty innocent XD watch me wear this maid outfit
• I wish I was there to cuddle you warm
• =O why no modeling? I bought a camera and everything
• If you want I'll hook you up with private lessons ;)
• I'll still have you in my mind raring
• I don't have the heart to turn you down
  
• well I'm happy you're happy
• Haha. Let him, I guess. As long as you don't cheat on me :3
• Rly? Who is this guy? I'll bash him for seeing my laling behind my back. I'll kill him
• You're the only lady for me though.
  
• We can do duet. Will you be shy then?
• I sure miss you too baby
• I'm touched at the fact that you would want to do something like that for me. But I can make some too, together we can have 1000 (Senbatsuru Senbazuru)
• "Yeah, nice ass. Maybe I'll cop a feel" "That's my job!" "What, in the public? Don't make me yelp XD" "Haha, I'm a sly dog. I'll make you yelp in public!"
• Hahaha. I'm sorry. There's some ways only Dom can satisfy me
• I miss you too baby =3 I really can't wait to see you
  

Geo:
I've always had a craving for you
Any love from you is good enough for me



LOLX

Waning Passion

Suddenly no passion for Wangan. Maybe coz of the gaming thing. ARGH.

MISSED A 2nD CLASS OF CAT T.T

End of Choir

End of my choir life. Gonna find a proper time to give my email. =/

The concert was great.

Lol. Arty..is cute. XD

Thoughts

I totally forgot what I wanted to write about, so forget it. I'll talk to ALW and then get some l4d in, and then go to bed.

O.O

I grew bigger -.-'''

Ren Ren, we need to go do serious shopping.

SERIOUS FEMALE SHOPPING T.T

1st Gamers' Irregular meeting

Oh well. Kind of hope it all goes well? I think the info session was kind of weird -.-'''

~

It went well, I guess. I felt I participated! XD

ALW.

Great. He's emoing. AGAIN. At me. GREAT. JUST GREAT.

Why do I trip up and cause hurt to those around me?

Why do I hurt those that I love (even as friends) the most?

Why do I even CARE so much?

Is it because...I still have feelings for him? In a "deep respect" kind of way?

If you're reading this, I don't hold it against you. It was my fault entirely, and you'd probably agree.

Competition Ground

Should I have gone back there?

The battle lust, I once remembered it. I once felt it.

Yet I didn't feel it yesterday. Perhaps because that loudmouth was there, along with other unsavoury types.

Claddagh Ring

The Claddagh Ring is an Irish treasure; it is a symbol of Love, Friendship and Loyalty.

The Claddagh Ring belongs to a widespread group of finger rings called Fede or "Faith rings" which date from Roman times. They are distinguished by having the bezel cut or cast in the form of two clasped hands, symbolising faith, trust or "plighted troth". Fede rings were popular in the Middle Ages throughout Europe, and there are examples from this time in the National Museum of Ireland, Kildare Street, Dublin.

The "Claddagh" ring is a particularly distinctive ring; two hands clasp a heart surmounted by a crown.

The ring worn on the right hand, crown turned inward tells your heart is yet unoccupied, worn with the crown turned outwards reveals love is being considered. Worn on the left hand the crown turned outward shows all, your heart is truly spoken for.


I'm wearing my ring on my right hand now, crown turned outward. When can I wear it once more on my left hand with the crown turned inward?

=/

"So who you gonna choose as your bf?"

Not as if I have my eyes set on someone already. Right now, just keeping neutral first...

SChool work

is catching up to me -.-''''